...Except!
Life is pretty damn good.
--That's all for now.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Friday, October 17, 2008
*sighs*
So, for a long time I thought I had overcome my PPD.
But, as of late, I feel I never really overcame it as much as I ignored it.
And now, it's haunting me.
Life, is getting the best of me b/c of this damn thing they call depression.
I will not go on "happy pills" or depression medication. I feel, IMPO, that depression medication's are overly pre-scribed. There's no doubt that I could probably benefit, but I just don't want to be another statistic or whatever.
I am going to go back to trying St. John's Wort. We'll see how that works. However, that is mainly reccommended for short term like 3-6 months. I don't know if in that period of time I can "overcome" these "obstacles".
People keep asking, "Are you pregnant!?" NO! I'm not pregnant. I don't drink enough water to get pregnant, lol. But, seriously, no.. not pregnant. I need new glasses. I've been so pathetic and lazy, that it's been 2 years since my last appointment, first time in my life I haven't been every year. I'm going in January- and there's no doubt I need new lenses... So I'm gonna get new frames while I'm at it.
I put my glasses on in the morning and within about 10 minutes I have a lingering headache, I'm pretty sure it's my eyes.
Olin's work-up got cancelled for this next week. We're praying the deployment doesn't... b/c that would just mean it would get post-poned, and the timing of this deployment is great. He won't miss anything major, like our anniversary, ball, Thanksgiving or Christmas... and he'll leave right after Erika's first birthday. Thank Heaven's he'll be here for that.
I haven't had much of an appetite in awhile. Not sure why, just been eating small stuff. && not very often.
...i don't feel like writing anymore, so later.
But, as of late, I feel I never really overcame it as much as I ignored it.
And now, it's haunting me.
Life, is getting the best of me b/c of this damn thing they call depression.
I will not go on "happy pills" or depression medication. I feel, IMPO, that depression medication's are overly pre-scribed. There's no doubt that I could probably benefit, but I just don't want to be another statistic or whatever.
I am going to go back to trying St. John's Wort. We'll see how that works. However, that is mainly reccommended for short term like 3-6 months. I don't know if in that period of time I can "overcome" these "obstacles".
People keep asking, "Are you pregnant!?" NO! I'm not pregnant. I don't drink enough water to get pregnant, lol. But, seriously, no.. not pregnant. I need new glasses. I've been so pathetic and lazy, that it's been 2 years since my last appointment, first time in my life I haven't been every year. I'm going in January- and there's no doubt I need new lenses... So I'm gonna get new frames while I'm at it.
I put my glasses on in the morning and within about 10 minutes I have a lingering headache, I'm pretty sure it's my eyes.
Olin's work-up got cancelled for this next week. We're praying the deployment doesn't... b/c that would just mean it would get post-poned, and the timing of this deployment is great. He won't miss anything major, like our anniversary, ball, Thanksgiving or Christmas... and he'll leave right after Erika's first birthday. Thank Heaven's he'll be here for that.
I haven't had much of an appetite in awhile. Not sure why, just been eating small stuff. && not very often.
...i don't feel like writing anymore, so later.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Ham's!!
So, we have this new restaurant. I used to go here all the time with friends back in college, and my senior year of high school, well we moved to Havelock and they had on in James City... well now they opened one up IN HAVELOCK! Like I've said before, I'm pissed they picked Ham's when there is one right there 15 minutes away.. they should've picked something neither NB or MHC had, so more people would come to Havelock and make this town some more money- but hey- it is what it is.
Anyways, a lot of people don't like it ... Which works out to my benefit- now I don't have to worry about seeing anyone I don't like there, the people I do like really enjoy Ham's... the one's I don't... don't... WOOHOO! My Tuesday night is AWESOME!
Anyways...
BACON CHEESE FRIES BABY!
Anyways, a lot of people don't like it ... Which works out to my benefit- now I don't have to worry about seeing anyone I don't like there, the people I do like really enjoy Ham's... the one's I don't... don't... WOOHOO! My Tuesday night is AWESOME!
Anyways...
BACON CHEESE FRIES BABY!
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
An Update
I always forget to post for my "oh so many" followers. :)
So, an update.
Things are good. No, actually they're great.
I got my eyebrow pierced yesterday, it's pretty rockin'. Christina colored my hair my NATURAL box COLOR today, it's burgundy/red... like it is usually. Ha.
Erika, got her first tooth, through the entire surface, about 2 weeks ago. Now she's chompin' away at everything.
As for "L" and her little friends, "L's" friend, "R", told me flat out it was "T". I really don't care. Who has that much time to make a fake myspace. And the pics she used? OMG! Had she really used those pics in real life, and then met up with someone, they probably would've fell on their a$$ laughing. Fo shizzle, my nizzle. No lie. I mean, who REALLY has that much time? What a great role model for her child, too. Ya know? Like, "I'm a wanna-be home-wrecker kids, be like me when you grow up." *Pukes*... I wonder if her husband knows she was messaging my husband? I wonder if he'd like knowing that his wife was a drama-starting "fill in with random obscenity here". Ugh. Well, now that I know, it doesn't surprise me. But seriously, for those who are friends with her, I mean.. Why? I know everyone can be a good person to people, just like me. I don't get along with everyone, but the people I am friends with get treated amazingly by me. It just takes a lot to become a friend. So I know the same goes for others. I'm not gonna get a long with everyone, but why would anyone, willing be friends with someone who does things like that in their spare time. *pukes again*. Oh my.
Besides all that, things are so amazing. Olin and I are great. Can you believe, in just about a month, we've been married for 2 years? We have a child we worked hard to concieve, that we love very dearly- and are talking of TTC next fall. I mean, life is good. God does work little miracles here and there :) We're not rushing a large family. I, personally, would like to have my normal body back, before I go tackin' on another 30 lbs. I think more people should think like me, lol. Haha, oh boy- if we had a bunch of people running around who thought like me, this world would be PERFECT! Well, not PERFECT, but damn close to! :) Okay, Okay. Maybe that's a bit concieted. But, WHO CARES? Okay, Erika was 8 months old today! Yeah, I know, 8 months! In 4 months we'll be celebrating her First birthday!! And Olin, well, he'll be getting ready to deploy.. (If it doesn't get cancelled, which knowing them, they will cancel it.. poor guy..)... Otherwise, if he doesn't deploy we'll be reserving our hotel in Vegas for his sista's wedding. Fun times! *I think!* But yeah.. Seriously, almost 2 years married. And it's been amazing. *Everyone has their moments, so no, it's not been PERFECT, but if you ain't got problems sometimes... you gotta BIGGER PROBLEMS than you lead on!*
Zoey, our new dog. Wait, I didn't tell you. Yes, we have a new dog, Zoey. She's a Papillon.. and the sweetest lil darn thing in the world. Not to mention, the cutest furball creature. The cat, well, I could throw that cat sometimes.. She likes to claw things- she's gonna get de-clawed the beginning of the year.. Yep, it's already set up!
Erika's first dentist appointment is in New Bern on November 19!!!! Oh! My! Goodness! My big girl!!! I can't believe it! Yeah!
So, hmm.. what else is there? Oh! Olin had his eye appointment, they gave him THE FORM! THE FORM! THE FORM! He's just gotta get it signed by the C/O and send it to LeJeune, and he'll be on the list for the refractive surgery! Which means, NO MORE GLASSES OR CONTACTS FOR THE HUBBY MEISTER! Woot... Just me. ANd let me tell you, I LOVE LOVE LOVE GLASSES. Once I get my dental all finished though (be awhile, including braces time.. can't wait!)... I'll be getting lasik surgery on my eyes. I've been in glasses since 2nd grade.. tried contacts in 8th, not for me.. Something about poking myself in the eye is not very appealing, nor could I do it willingly. But, that will be atleast 2 years, so, not going and getting my hopes up. My eyes still change a lot year to year. I'm nearly blind, I'm pretty close to legally blind.. so.. FUN!
Well, it's 1120 pm, I'm going to bed.
I gotta clean tomorrow. LeAnne, Erika's god-father's cousin, my very dear dear dear friend is engaged to a guy in school at Camp Geiger, and she's coming here to visit on Friday- then heading to see her man! We've never met in person.. She's met Olin, and we text and talk non-stop.. so it's super exciting!!! She can see my bruised eyebrow! OH BOY!
Okay.! TIME! FOR! BED! STOP RAMBLING now.. okay, I'll stop!
NITE!
So, an update.
Things are good. No, actually they're great.
I got my eyebrow pierced yesterday, it's pretty rockin'. Christina colored my hair my NATURAL box COLOR today, it's burgundy/red... like it is usually. Ha.
Erika, got her first tooth, through the entire surface, about 2 weeks ago. Now she's chompin' away at everything.
As for "L" and her little friends, "L's" friend, "R", told me flat out it was "T". I really don't care. Who has that much time to make a fake myspace. And the pics she used? OMG! Had she really used those pics in real life, and then met up with someone, they probably would've fell on their a$$ laughing. Fo shizzle, my nizzle. No lie. I mean, who REALLY has that much time? What a great role model for her child, too. Ya know? Like, "I'm a wanna-be home-wrecker kids, be like me when you grow up." *Pukes*... I wonder if her husband knows she was messaging my husband? I wonder if he'd like knowing that his wife was a drama-starting "fill in with random obscenity here". Ugh. Well, now that I know, it doesn't surprise me. But seriously, for those who are friends with her, I mean.. Why? I know everyone can be a good person to people, just like me. I don't get along with everyone, but the people I am friends with get treated amazingly by me. It just takes a lot to become a friend. So I know the same goes for others. I'm not gonna get a long with everyone, but why would anyone, willing be friends with someone who does things like that in their spare time. *pukes again*. Oh my.
Besides all that, things are so amazing. Olin and I are great. Can you believe, in just about a month, we've been married for 2 years? We have a child we worked hard to concieve, that we love very dearly- and are talking of TTC next fall. I mean, life is good. God does work little miracles here and there :) We're not rushing a large family. I, personally, would like to have my normal body back, before I go tackin' on another 30 lbs. I think more people should think like me, lol. Haha, oh boy- if we had a bunch of people running around who thought like me, this world would be PERFECT! Well, not PERFECT, but damn close to! :) Okay, Okay. Maybe that's a bit concieted. But, WHO CARES? Okay, Erika was 8 months old today! Yeah, I know, 8 months! In 4 months we'll be celebrating her First birthday!! And Olin, well, he'll be getting ready to deploy.. (If it doesn't get cancelled, which knowing them, they will cancel it.. poor guy..)... Otherwise, if he doesn't deploy we'll be reserving our hotel in Vegas for his sista's wedding. Fun times! *I think!* But yeah.. Seriously, almost 2 years married. And it's been amazing. *Everyone has their moments, so no, it's not been PERFECT, but if you ain't got problems sometimes... you gotta BIGGER PROBLEMS than you lead on!*
Zoey, our new dog. Wait, I didn't tell you. Yes, we have a new dog, Zoey. She's a Papillon.. and the sweetest lil darn thing in the world. Not to mention, the cutest furball creature. The cat, well, I could throw that cat sometimes.. She likes to claw things- she's gonna get de-clawed the beginning of the year.. Yep, it's already set up!
Erika's first dentist appointment is in New Bern on November 19!!!! Oh! My! Goodness! My big girl!!! I can't believe it! Yeah!
So, hmm.. what else is there? Oh! Olin had his eye appointment, they gave him THE FORM! THE FORM! THE FORM! He's just gotta get it signed by the C/O and send it to LeJeune, and he'll be on the list for the refractive surgery! Which means, NO MORE GLASSES OR CONTACTS FOR THE HUBBY MEISTER! Woot... Just me. ANd let me tell you, I LOVE LOVE LOVE GLASSES. Once I get my dental all finished though (be awhile, including braces time.. can't wait!)... I'll be getting lasik surgery on my eyes. I've been in glasses since 2nd grade.. tried contacts in 8th, not for me.. Something about poking myself in the eye is not very appealing, nor could I do it willingly. But, that will be atleast 2 years, so, not going and getting my hopes up. My eyes still change a lot year to year. I'm nearly blind, I'm pretty close to legally blind.. so.. FUN!
Well, it's 1120 pm, I'm going to bed.
I gotta clean tomorrow. LeAnne, Erika's god-father's cousin, my very dear dear dear friend is engaged to a guy in school at Camp Geiger, and she's coming here to visit on Friday- then heading to see her man! We've never met in person.. She's met Olin, and we text and talk non-stop.. so it's super exciting!!! She can see my bruised eyebrow! OH BOY!
Okay.! TIME! FOR! BED! STOP RAMBLING now.. okay, I'll stop!
NITE!
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