Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Family.

I consider friends, family. However, w/ friends, if they screw up- I could choose to just let them out of my life. There is no blood that ties us together. But, most of the time, we always find a way to work things out, well, with some people. Like, Christina. We've been friends many a year, and no matter what drama llama shit comes up, it may take a few months, but we're right back to finishing each other sentences, & connected at the hip. Missed it.

It takes a long time to make a friend like that. And I'm having a hard time letting other people get that close. Christina & I know EVERYTHING about each other. With the short amount of time we're stationed in one location, there's no way one person could know me, or I know them, the way Christina and I do. I mean, I don't think it's possible. But, it's worth a try right? We can learn new things about each other, right?

It's so hard for me to open up to new people. Hell, it's hard for me to open up to myself! Lol! New people scare me. Lol. Folks just aren't who they seem. It takes a LONG time to get past the initial briefing of creating a friendship, and when it comes down to the nitty gritty, how many folks are going to put up with BS from each other the way your TRUE friends do? Not many.

This is really a meaningless post. Just some stuff I've been thinking about. A "friend" that Christina and I BOTH tried to be friends with has turned out to prove us RIGHT about folks, they lie. And lie some more. Just to keep you in their life. And then when they fuck it up for the last time, you're like shit- now I don't know WHO I can trust. And it makes it that much harder for the next person to get close to you.

Okay. More at a later time.

2 comments:

Sweet Melissa said...

People suck, and real friends are a dime a dozen.

Sweet Melissa said...

wait, not a dime a dozen.

its early.

or something.