*sighs*

So, for a long time I thought I had overcome my PPD.

But, as of late, I feel I never really overcame it as much as I ignored it.

And now, it's haunting me.

Life, is getting the best of me b/c of this damn thing they call depression.

I will not go on "happy pills" or depression medication. I feel, IMPO, that depression medication's are overly pre-scribed. There's no doubt that I could probably benefit, but I just don't want to be another statistic or whatever.

I am going to go back to trying St. John's Wort. We'll see how that works. However, that is mainly reccommended for short term like 3-6 months. I don't know if in that period of time I can "overcome" these "obstacles".

People keep asking, "Are you pregnant!?" NO! I'm not pregnant. I don't drink enough water to get pregnant, lol. But, seriously, no.. not pregnant. I need new glasses. I've been so pathetic and lazy, that it's been 2 years since my last appointment, first time in my life I haven't been every year. I'm going in January- and there's no doubt I need new lenses... So I'm gonna get new frames while I'm at it.

I put my glasses on in the morning and within about 10 minutes I have a lingering headache, I'm pretty sure it's my eyes.

Olin's work-up got cancelled for this next week. We're praying the deployment doesn't... b/c that would just mean it would get post-poned, and the timing of this deployment is great. He won't miss anything major, like our anniversary, ball, Thanksgiving or Christmas... and he'll leave right after Erika's first birthday. Thank Heaven's he'll be here for that.

I haven't had much of an appetite in awhile. Not sure why, just been eating small stuff. && not very often.

...i don't feel like writing anymore, so later.